Different

Shifts in day light make it hard for me to wake up.  It felt so good to be in dreams and I couldn't pull myself away until after 6.  I didn't mind being late for work so much.  At one time, it was the end of the world because I knew the guys wouldn't let me hear the end of it.  They still don't but I know they love me underneath it all.  I belong here even if it's by default.
My knee still feels out of shape so I decided to go for another walk instead of going to the gym last night.  I called my girlfriend Nancy so I wouldn't think about time or being tired.  I don't have a lot of friends here and talking to someone who really knows me felt good. 
Adam used my walk as an excuse not to go to the gym and spend the night pouting about his love life..and life in general.  I don't enjoy being around him when he's in these moods.  I always feel as if he's mad at me and resent the fact that he leaves little household chores up to me while he combs dating sites for attention.  I'm so far removed from seeking that sort of attention.  It just won't show up when you're looking for it.  I wish he knew that.
I have a date Friday night.  For a long time I've wanted to learn to roller skate.  I think I would make a super derby girl so I have a date with a new found friend who is going to teach me.  I'm so excited.  I need new friends and a new outlet will be good for me.
The Professor emailed me yesterday.  "How are you doing Lover?"  I wrote back promptly and heard nothing.  This is his way.  Perhaps it makes him feel in control.  Maybe he got lost in other things. I don't care.  I'm not all about controlling the way things play out,  Let him have at it.  It doesn't change the fact that loving him feels a lot better than trying not to love him.  I feel this way in part because I know that I'm changing, growing, moving in fast and furious ways.  Parts of me are ready to be in a relationship and parts of me are not.  He and I are not so different.  In ways we are just alike.