Other Things

I spent the afternoon thinking of other things.
The Internet is an incredible tool.  You can find almost anything there.
You can even find that a Professor isn't always schooling grad students.  He likes to lend his wisdom to the masses through Yahoo Answers.  He gives his insight on everything from interviews to why the sky is blue.  He even gave some advice to a love sick boy.

"Act as if you don't care and see other people.  You will become more desirable because you will not be available.  She is blind to you now anyways, but not available is better.  If she doesn't come around, you are still seeing others (even if your heart isn't in it), and you might find someone else as good.

As for the sleep and no eating, etc.: STOP thinking of her.  It will still hurt, but your thinking about it will add extra chemicals in your brain that make you sad.  You will get through this...just keep sludging forward and bide your time.  Statistically, they won't last.  Good luck bro..."

So I thought about other things and he was right of course.  I felt better.  I felt amazing all afternoon and into the night.

I began an online creative writing class.  My first assignment is to spend an hour in a place that has meaning noting things that evoke the five senses.  I have to write a 500 word essay on it.  I think I will do this at Daddy's over the weekend.

I slid into shorts when I got home and felt spring on my legs.  I put my heart into vegetable soup and folded two loads of laundry for Adam.  I reached out to friends and spoke with my daughter about military ball gowns.  I cleaned the house and made kissy noises at Ollie the Quaker Parrot.  I busied my hands, listened to my heart and didn't think at all.

And seeing other people?  Well, for now I'll see family and friends.  I am not sure I want to see other people in any romantic sense.  I still want The Professor to be that person to me but I certainly don't want it to consume me.  Some things happen right away.  Other things take time or not at all.  I don't want to completely dismiss him because I can't have my way. I don't know the reasons behind the absence and quite frankly it's none of my business.