Never a Day without Love

I've never gone a single day of my life without knowing that someone loved me.  I'm lucky because I know that not everyone experiences that.  This is not to say my life has always been easy or that it is now but in some way, I've always known love. 
I am alone but not necessarily lonely.  I'd like to feel close to someone but I'm not an absolutely wreck that that I'm not.  I like myself enough to enjoy my own company and my life is littered with good friends and loved ones. 
Yesterday, Bob Dylan celebrated his 70th birthday.  In the course of the day, I received an email from an old lover I still correspond with who happens to love Dylan as much as I do (he introduced him to me during our romance) and probably the only person I know that is more knowledgeable in Dylanology.  The email was just a single photo of Dylan with the subject of  "70".  It made me glow that in his busy Chicago life, I came to mind yesterday.  I sent him a simple note back.  "You're the only one who know that all I really need in life is Dylan and good shoes". 
And it's true though I long and strive for more.  Survival is an art form and I am a survivor.  It's my greatest strength and probably my greatest weakness.  In life, I've walked away from many things because I knew that I could.  Maybe it's the abandoned child in me.  A broken hearted child learns to live off little rather than lose a lot.  I've spent years avoiding feeling left behind at all costs.  Perhaps I could have known greater successes had I not feared being abandoned again.  Perhaps I would have never known my truest life experience if I had stayed in situations that my inner child feared.
Rich gave me Dylan and Dylan is something that no one can take away from me.  Those songs have kept me company when there was no company to be found.  It has spoken to me on intimate levels as if he were writing songs just about me long before my birth.
Rich and I had a once in a lifetime love.  We were never meant to be more than a season, though I suspect we will always wonder what would have happened if I had not decided to leave Chicago.  I also believe we will always check in on one another until there's nothing left to check into.  I hope I go first.  I like knowing he's out there.